so sick:(

nobody's perfect. yeah im NOBODY. and when i promise to my self again again and again suddenly something broken me up. yeah its YOU again in mY STUPID and superSILLY mind. with nothing to do and nothing to prove i try to remove your step. i try to move on but yeah again again its failed. yesterday was my fourth anniversary with my real boyfriend and i promise to take him as he was and promise i will love him forever and ever. i suggested to my self that he was the only one and only who can make myself alive who can reborn and light up my broken lovelife. I PROMISE that HE WAS THE ONE AND ONLY.

but you see the fact last night my friend lutfan has already done the stupid silly things that remembering me again to my dumb and damn lovelife that was bring me in the world that i can't done again in the past. yeah. the only mistake is just he phoned someone far far away from here. ANDI RAHMAN HAKIM. and talking about my BLEMISH. she still love you she still miss you and also she still need you, come on when you will leave that flower damn town and come here to see her? oh NO! IT JUST A FUCKING WORLd!. and that things I NEVER SAY.

he just laugh, laugh and laugh again, oh come on. i can't lie to myself that im so much happy to hear your soggy voice. im so much missing your silly world juSt like past you only smile at me and laugh at my silly world on the phone, right?. and now im so much remembering and SO SICK about you. and you just laugh? you just laugh over my tears? did you say something or anything to neglected my self? did'nt you?

hey fucking boy, where's your new girlfriend? and you only say"haha opo lut, aku ora nduwe pacaar ora oraa" you refused ? you avoid that so much hideous world? oohh come on, don't be lie at your self, or you can be an enemy to your self, im okay to accept that you had already become a husband of someone, dont be afraid, im okay, so much okay than i hear you lie to your self and make the opposite things of real life, yeah, once again, im okay to see you HAPPY WITH ANOTHER WOMAN,

did i lie to myself? did now i lie to myheart? didnt I? yeah i dont know, just YOU GOD the only one and only that can detect my feeling well, or you myREALBESTIES?
i dont know i dont know anymore, that i know till now, you are the most rascal BOY that already broken mylovelife and now you comeback just to see goodbye and give me a sign to kiss myself goodbye, and know you broken up my promise to my bibb, again, the mission target to FORGET YOU IS FAILED OR ENTED!! but it doesnt matter for me it just like usual things . hooooavhh. hard to breath now when i think about you. OH SHITT!! I HATE THAT I LOVE YOU SOO TILL NOW, damn!

dont let me think about his smile or meeting at first sight,
now let he goo, turn off the radio,
leave me alone, stupid love songs,YOU DONT KNOW ABOUT MYSELF WELL ;(