kenangan:)

hmmmmmmm

hariku untukmuuuu:)

love song

lagu nada ada suatu maha karya yang indah apalagi jika kita mau mengerti dan menghayati maknanya, lagu ini salah satunya, lagu yang benar" membangun, ga sekedar lagu cinta yang menye menye (kalo kata MEY) hahaha , bagiku, lagu ini punya arti tersendiri:)

hakikat airmata dalam sebuah cinta

sungguh nggak tega rasanya ngeliat sahabat yang uda 3 hari ini sambat dan ga henti" nya nangis bombay ngeliat pacarnya yang sebulan lalu minta break dan akhirnya minta putus, uda aku dugaa karna setelah break itu cuma ada 2 kemungkinan. lanjut ato bubar, and the worst thing is when finally it gonna be cut down and all its over, kenyataan pait yang harus diterima dari pihak si cwek, serasa dunia runtuh gara" itu air mata keluar ngucur deras ga tertahan dan ak mkir ga sampe ati si cowok bkin keputusan sepihak yang ak gatau itu semua maksutnya apa, 'iyaa oke aku lagi sibuk tugas, aku lagi pengen konsen ke kuliaah' well kalo kaya gitu kenapa dia ga bisa bagi waktu ngeluangin hari buat dating day sih? apa dia juga ga mkir kalo cewek nya yg sekarang uda kelas 3 SMA emang bener" butuh dorongan dan motivasi engga dengan di tinggal terus jadi kaya layangan putus ga tentu arah gini. jadi males makan, males mandi (haha yang ini optional), males belajar pkoknya jadi bete lah males ngapa ngapain , dan kembali kita tanya, apa lagi selain cinta hal yang bkin kaya gini, dan sekali lagi ak salut sama isi notes sahabat aku yang bilang, 'cinta itu pengorbanan, tapi engga untuk menyiksa diri' pengorbanan disini maksutnya rela mengorbankan hati meskipun dia bukan punya kita lagi dan asal dia bahagia disana kita juga uda ckup senang , ingat, berkorban masalah hati, bukan ke arah fisik, bahwa sampai ada berita di koran yang bilang kalo ada remaja yang hamil gara" saking cinta nya sama pacar terus dia ngerelain keVIRGINAN nya, dan apakah itu dinamakan pengorbanan? TIDAK! cinta ga berkorban fisik, kalo berkorban fisik itu namanya NAFSU!.
Dan apakah kita boleh menangis karna cinta? menangis adalah hak tiap manusia utk mengekspresikan susah sedih dan bahagia, dan tangis yang boleh disini adalah ketika kita berhasil melepaskan dia dan merelakan dia untuk orang lain supaya dia lebih bahagia meskipun kita nggak rela, jadi kita boleh menangis haru karna kita uda mengikhlaskan sperempat hati kita untuk nggak dimiliki dia lagi,jadi tangis disini adalah tangis untuk kekuatan dan keyakinan agar suatu saat dia kembali dan Tuhan mempertemukan kita dengan dia lagi dengan cara yang indah:)

videoooo

so sick:(

nobody's perfect. yeah im NOBODY. and when i promise to my self again again and again suddenly something broken me up. yeah its YOU again in mY STUPID and superSILLY mind. with nothing to do and nothing to prove i try to remove your step. i try to move on but yeah again again its failed. yesterday was my fourth anniversary with my real boyfriend and i promise to take him as he was and promise i will love him forever and ever. i suggested to my self that he was the only one and only who can make myself alive who can reborn and light up my broken lovelife. I PROMISE that HE WAS THE ONE AND ONLY.

but you see the fact last night my friend lutfan has already done the stupid silly things that remembering me again to my dumb and damn lovelife that was bring me in the world that i can't done again in the past. yeah. the only mistake is just he phoned someone far far away from here. ANDI RAHMAN HAKIM. and talking about my BLEMISH. she still love you she still miss you and also she still need you, come on when you will leave that flower damn town and come here to see her? oh NO! IT JUST A FUCKING WORLd!. and that things I NEVER SAY.

he just laugh, laugh and laugh again, oh come on. i can't lie to myself that im so much happy to hear your soggy voice. im so much missing your silly world juSt like past you only smile at me and laugh at my silly world on the phone, right?. and now im so much remembering and SO SICK about you. and you just laugh? you just laugh over my tears? did you say something or anything to neglected my self? did'nt you?

hey fucking boy, where's your new girlfriend? and you only say"haha opo lut, aku ora nduwe pacaar ora oraa" you refused ? you avoid that so much hideous world? oohh come on, don't be lie at your self, or you can be an enemy to your self, im okay to accept that you had already become a husband of someone, dont be afraid, im okay, so much okay than i hear you lie to your self and make the opposite things of real life, yeah, once again, im okay to see you HAPPY WITH ANOTHER WOMAN,

did i lie to myself? did now i lie to myheart? didnt I? yeah i dont know, just YOU GOD the only one and only that can detect my feeling well, or you myREALBESTIES?
i dont know i dont know anymore, that i know till now, you are the most rascal BOY that already broken mylovelife and now you comeback just to see goodbye and give me a sign to kiss myself goodbye, and know you broken up my promise to my bibb, again, the mission target to FORGET YOU IS FAILED OR ENTED!! but it doesnt matter for me it just like usual things . hooooavhh. hard to breath now when i think about you. OH SHITT!! I HATE THAT I LOVE YOU SOO TILL NOW, damn!

dont let me think about his smile or meeting at first sight,
now let he goo, turn off the radio,
leave me alone, stupid love songs,YOU DONT KNOW ABOUT MYSELF WELL ;(